Good Morning and Blessings Everyone!
I started my discussion yesterday telling you about a young man who was coming through to me because he needed to reach his mother. Let's go back to that. This all started on Saturday evening. I was out with a group of friends enjoying a night of dinner, dancing and great music. My brother-in-law was singing at Ciellos Resturant, not too far from home. Just in case you are in New Jersey and want to check them out www.thedumontsnj.com. My brother-in-law is Sal Fede.
While I was out Saturday evening I lost the hearing in my left ear. It felt as if someone had poured water into it. That's the best way I could explain it. Now most people would explain that away because of the loud music. They would probably think this was no big deal but for me I knew better. I have had this happen so many times before I knew it was someone trying desperatly to get through to me. I went to the ladies room and said out loud, "Who ever this is I am not in the place right now to listen to you. Please let's talk later." I know this sounds weird to some of you but I have found when I am not able to communicate with the other world, but they want to communicate with me, it is best I just explain and meditate later to get them back. It works for me, always has, but I know it may not work for others.
When we got home that night I tried to reach out but was unable to find out who was calling out to me. I felt horrible, worried some soul needed my help and I pushed them away. Sunday morning I was up doing my thing, writing, reading, when I heard the call again. My ear lost some hearing, I put my hand to it and asked who was it that was trying so hard to reach me. All I heard was a name, "Mikey!" I had to think to myself if I knew this soul but I could not remember anyone who was named Mikey in my life. I listened to, "It's me, Mikey. I need to reach my mother." Ok, I told him I would help him reach her but he needed to talk to me. I needed to know who she was and where to go. Mikey got quiet again. I felt so bad for him he was trying so hard to reach out to her. He obviously needed to get something settled.
The rest of the day was quiet but that night when I went to sleep I had hoped he would come to me but he didn't. Instead my Uncle Sonny, who past away some seventeen years ago and never came to me, was in my dream. He was leaving my Great Grandmothers house which was just down the street from my pops house, not more than seven doors away. I called out to him when I saw him. He stopped just as he got to the curb turned and asked me how things were going. I told him they were good with me then asked him how everything was for him. He said it was good, he was happy. I then asked him how my father was doing. He told me Pop was doing great and I didn't need to worry. I said to him that I missed my father all the time and I asked the same question I have been asking myself since 11/23/2012, "I know my pop was up there in age and not in the best of health but why did he have to go now?" My Uncle turned to me and smiled saying, "Know your father is happy and you need to stop asking why!" With that he smiled and ran off across the street, where he ran through some puddles then disappeared. I got the message I needed to accept what was going on around me and stop asking Why!
Monday morning Joey, my boyfried, went off to work and I settled down to write and edit my book. No sooner I sat down to write there went my left ear again. This time there was pain associated with the deafing of the ear. I reached up and rubbed it while asking who was trying to get in touch with me. There he was, all of twenty one years old. He looked so happy, content, a bright light surrounding him. I was drawn to his smile. "I take it you are Mikey!" he said he was and he needed to me to contact his mom. She needed to know he was ok. I was about to ask who his mother was when he said, "Where have you been. I have been waiting for you to come back. I needed you to talk to her, she doesn't hear me. She talks to me she just doesn't hear me." I was confused at first. Obviously I had talked to his mother about him some time in the past. Wow, who could it be. I started going through things in my head when a light went on and there it was. "Sandy, is that your mom?" He smiled and said she was indeed his mother. Sandy was a friend of Joey's sister. They had known eachother for years. One night when I was sitting in the kitchen at Joey's sisters house Mikey came through to me. I was able to tell Sandy everything he was say. I didn't ask for him to he just popped in and started chatting much like he was doing now. I promised him I would call her and give her the message.
Unfotuanately I was not able to reach Sandy on Monday so bright and early Tuesday morning he reached out once again. He was standing in front of a black car that I didn't recogonize at first. He was polishing the car when he repeated I needed to get in touch with his mother she needed to know he was ok. It seemed there was an important date coming up and she needed this information. Now logically I figured it was his birthday and it would hurt her to think about him on that day. He wanted to comfort her. I told him it was too early for me to call around and get her number but I would call Joey's sister, Camille soon to make sure I got the number. After a moment or two I realized Mikey was polishing our car. I asked him why he was cleaning our car and he argued with me it was his car he was just letting us use it. Then I realized he was right. Joey had brought the car from Mikey's parents about a year ago. So Mikey's energy has been around me for a long time.
A couple of hours later I got Camille on the phone and told her what was going on. I asked if it was Mikey's birthday she told me no, it was the anniversary of his death, Feb 1, 2011. Wow, it never stops amazing me how these things work. I did get to tell Sandy everything Mikey and I talked about and she laughed saying it was just like him. She was so glad he got through to me. I was glad I got through to her. Last night all I heard from Mikey was thank you. It made it all worth while.
Reaching Out
They reach out from beyond,
Re-affirming their bond,
With the family members who need to know,
It is ok they had to go,
Back home where they were called,
They were not picked up and hauled,
Into a realm they did not want to be,
A realm not visiable to you and me,
No they were summoned to ease their pain,
Taken home once again,
Their soul free to be,
Happy, healthy, and carefree,
It is said they get to go,
Back to a happier time in life so,
They will live out their time there,
Free of pain, no more care,
Until it is time for them to return,
To this realm for more lessons to learn,
If by chance they have learned it all,
Then they have met Gods call,
Rewarded they will be,
Intertwined for all eternity,
With their twin flame an embrace,
If in fact this is the case,
Through all eternity they will work,
Through all the negativity and murk,
To help those that are in need,
To guide them to succeed,
Down the path they were meant to take,
No more pain or heartache,
Angel guides forever more they will be,
Looking out for you and me.
To Be Continued..........
Wednesday, January 30, 2013
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
An Empath's Light
Good Morning and Blessings Everyone!
I woke up this morning with someone whispering in my ear. He wanted to be heard and no one else was listening so he found my light. A young man whose mother I know is reaching to be heard. He found my light and figured I would hear him so he could get his message to his mother. He past away a while ago but he never left her. This makes the second time this week I heard him call out and just a little while ago I lost the hearing in my left ear. Just for a second but it was a signal someone was talking to me and I was not listening. I stopped what I was doing only to have to explain to my young friend, it was too early to call his mom. I promised him I would do so today and give her his message.
This is how my life goes. Some days I don't hear from the other side and than other days I find it almost impossible to shut it off. I love it, I love my gift, but most of all I love helping people from both realms. So my friend from the other side, the next realm, found me through my energy, my light no different than people of this realm find me. You see, empaths put out their energy as well. It is how we find the people who need us, or should I say how they find us.
I used to own a Spiritual Store. I thought it was the only way I could reach all those who needed to find help. I was wrong. Yes there were days people would come into my shop saying, "I have no idea why I came in here but something told me to stop. I have never been in a shop like this before. What can you tell me about it?" At that point I would get a small smile on my face and feeling of peace. I knew I had work to do but the person standing before me at that point and time may not have been aware of it. The funny thing that would happen next, well funny to them not me I was used to it, they would start telling me their life story. After a while, perhaps after we had a cup of tea, they would look at me in wonder. They said they didn't understand why they told me all that information.
I always told them they came into the shop for a reason. As an empath I give off a white light. The best way I could explain it is some days this light is dim while others, when someone is close by that needs help, it shines bright so they can follow it. Now not all of them are seeing my light but they are feeling my energy. I have had those who have told me they followed the light into the store and knew it was where they were supposed to be at that point and time. I am here to help that is my calling. So when someone comes to me in need I am opened to help them.
I was so afraid once I closed the store the people who needed me wouldn't be able to find me. I am wrong, they are finding me. I am doing my readings for them, healing if needed, but most of all I am there to help them find their way. I do not charge for most of my work because they are being sent to me to help heal them. As for my readings I charge a small amount since my gifts are given to me by God. I am not here to get rich quick on doing readings for anyone. I am here to help them if they feel lost or can't find their way. Some times they just need to know they are doing the right thing. I do not use tarot cards I am an angel reader. I used Angel cards because people want to see the card. I don't always need it I like getting into peoples energy reading them. It's what I end up doing even with the card.
Yes you pull out a card read what it is but ultimately your next step should be to read the person along with the card. Get into their energy, ask the angels to show you what else they may need to know. I have a peaceful day now, helping people is no longer a task it is a pleasure. The business end of it is no more. I now work more on the personal level.
Empaths have the ability to call those who are in need to them. They light the way for them to find their peace and get the help they need. Whether it is to just talk to someone who doesn't know them and can not judge, so they get to vent or if it's someone who is aware of who and what an empath is and is seeking a healing. What ever it is the energy goes out and the job gets done.
Empathic Destiny
Quietly she sits in meditation,
She could feel the warm vibration,
Energy recharging with help from Mother Earth,
Granting her the feeling of rebirth,
Fully charged and ready to work,
Her lips curl in a knowing smirk,
Her eyes light up full of knowledge,
That can not be found with studies in college,
No she has learned her lessons well,
As her empathic senses swell,
She is now aware of her gifts,
How the energy around her shifts,
When those in need reach out,
Silently giving her a shout,
Not knowing what they need to do,
It is her responsibility to,
Help them along their way,
Listen to what they have to say,
Take the time to let them talk,
Slowly help them once again walk,
Along the path they were mean to take,
Their Spirituality now awake,
Help them open their eyes and see,
The path which was meant to be,
Opening herself up is how this is done,
She will help one by one.
To be Continued........
I woke up this morning with someone whispering in my ear. He wanted to be heard and no one else was listening so he found my light. A young man whose mother I know is reaching to be heard. He found my light and figured I would hear him so he could get his message to his mother. He past away a while ago but he never left her. This makes the second time this week I heard him call out and just a little while ago I lost the hearing in my left ear. Just for a second but it was a signal someone was talking to me and I was not listening. I stopped what I was doing only to have to explain to my young friend, it was too early to call his mom. I promised him I would do so today and give her his message.
This is how my life goes. Some days I don't hear from the other side and than other days I find it almost impossible to shut it off. I love it, I love my gift, but most of all I love helping people from both realms. So my friend from the other side, the next realm, found me through my energy, my light no different than people of this realm find me. You see, empaths put out their energy as well. It is how we find the people who need us, or should I say how they find us.
I used to own a Spiritual Store. I thought it was the only way I could reach all those who needed to find help. I was wrong. Yes there were days people would come into my shop saying, "I have no idea why I came in here but something told me to stop. I have never been in a shop like this before. What can you tell me about it?" At that point I would get a small smile on my face and feeling of peace. I knew I had work to do but the person standing before me at that point and time may not have been aware of it. The funny thing that would happen next, well funny to them not me I was used to it, they would start telling me their life story. After a while, perhaps after we had a cup of tea, they would look at me in wonder. They said they didn't understand why they told me all that information.
I always told them they came into the shop for a reason. As an empath I give off a white light. The best way I could explain it is some days this light is dim while others, when someone is close by that needs help, it shines bright so they can follow it. Now not all of them are seeing my light but they are feeling my energy. I have had those who have told me they followed the light into the store and knew it was where they were supposed to be at that point and time. I am here to help that is my calling. So when someone comes to me in need I am opened to help them.
I was so afraid once I closed the store the people who needed me wouldn't be able to find me. I am wrong, they are finding me. I am doing my readings for them, healing if needed, but most of all I am there to help them find their way. I do not charge for most of my work because they are being sent to me to help heal them. As for my readings I charge a small amount since my gifts are given to me by God. I am not here to get rich quick on doing readings for anyone. I am here to help them if they feel lost or can't find their way. Some times they just need to know they are doing the right thing. I do not use tarot cards I am an angel reader. I used Angel cards because people want to see the card. I don't always need it I like getting into peoples energy reading them. It's what I end up doing even with the card.
Yes you pull out a card read what it is but ultimately your next step should be to read the person along with the card. Get into their energy, ask the angels to show you what else they may need to know. I have a peaceful day now, helping people is no longer a task it is a pleasure. The business end of it is no more. I now work more on the personal level.
Empaths have the ability to call those who are in need to them. They light the way for them to find their peace and get the help they need. Whether it is to just talk to someone who doesn't know them and can not judge, so they get to vent or if it's someone who is aware of who and what an empath is and is seeking a healing. What ever it is the energy goes out and the job gets done.
Empathic Destiny
Quietly she sits in meditation,
She could feel the warm vibration,
Energy recharging with help from Mother Earth,
Granting her the feeling of rebirth,
Fully charged and ready to work,
Her lips curl in a knowing smirk,
Her eyes light up full of knowledge,
That can not be found with studies in college,
No she has learned her lessons well,
As her empathic senses swell,
She is now aware of her gifts,
How the energy around her shifts,
When those in need reach out,
Silently giving her a shout,
Not knowing what they need to do,
It is her responsibility to,
Help them along their way,
Listen to what they have to say,
Take the time to let them talk,
Slowly help them once again walk,
Along the path they were mean to take,
Their Spirituality now awake,
Help them open their eyes and see,
The path which was meant to be,
Opening herself up is how this is done,
She will help one by one.
To be Continued........
Monday, January 28, 2013
Emapths
Good Morning and Blessings to Everyone!
I started talking to you about empaths when we met last. There is little written out there that would help someone who is walking this path. The other night I was watching some wacko TV show about psychics. I am not saying psychics are wacko just this show. It upsets me to see shows like this because people do not realize that no matter what this is a script. If they don't like the way the show is going they can fix it their way. What upset me was this woman's description of being an empath, she told the person she was talking to that her empathic abilities made her clairvoyant! Nope, not true, not all empaths are clairvoyant. Empaths feel the energy of those around you. Can an empath invade someones energy? Yes they can and they should no better. You do not enter someone else's energy without first asking permission.
Is an empath intuitive? Yes they are. Being an empath you would posses the gift of being intuitive being able to read other peoples energy. You may not see this as a gift at first but in time you will learn to use it and appreciate it. I know I heard people when I was growing up, saying I was over sensitive. If I just learned to relax all would be alright. Empaths are highly sensitive but it's more than just sensitivity. Empaths can sense spiritual and physical sensitivities of others as well as their motivations and intentions. It's one of the reasons I had a hard time touching others. To this day I am cautious who I give my hugs to and extend my hand to. I have had instances where I have felt a person was sick without them even knowing. I have sensed the death of someone before it happened just by the touch of their hand in mine and I prayed I was wrong.
Being empathic is not like learning to read tarot cards. If you are empathic it is not something you can learn to do. You either are or aren't. At first, as an empath, I found I was always opened feeling others energy. It was hard for me to cope. Then I discovered a way to cleanse myself of all the earth bound energies I was picking up. It was very simple. I a small jar and put sea salt in it. Then added a small amount of water to allow the salt to moisten but stay thick enough to rub on the body. I used this salt from head to toe when I enter the shower. Then I was it off, washing all that earth bound energy away. After words I shower, wash my hair and relax.
I protect myself from gathering up these energies that knock me off course, I put a protective shield around myself. I am not talking about a real visible shield. I am talking about imagining a white circle of protection all around me with a dome like cover. Tucked safely inside I can cope with the energies around me. Of course if I do not put it around me before I enter into the confusion and chaos it is harder to get it in place so before you go into a situation that you know knocks you off balance, you should protect yourself. This works for me but it may not work for you. Each person needs to find what is best for them.
It is important for an empath to be grounded. To try to avoid the unpleasantries you know are harmful to you. For me it is the evening news, horror shows, thrillers that show ghosts doing real damage to innocent people! You get the picture? What I do is avoid these things. I can't tell you the last time I deliberately watched the news, I don't do horror shows and I avoid anything that even remotely looks like a psychic thriller with ghosts killing people. I don't need the negative energy it throws at me.
When I feel all out of sorts I take a deep breath, putting myself back into my body, grounding myself. Getting present in your body is very important and grounding essential to do this. Grounding isn't hard at all. It is best to close your eyes, now focus on your energy. You need to get your energy under control so you can push it away, out of your body. Place your hands on your Solar Plexus palms toward you. Now ask for all the unwanted negative energy to be gathered up. You can ask to yourself or speak the words out loud. Feel all that energy build up. You may even see a ball forming in you stomach area. I like to work it up to my head and out my crown Chakra others like to push it into out the bottom of their body into an imaginary bucket of water. The choice is yours whatever works best for you. I was taught if you push the energy out through your feet into the earth you contaminate the earth with all that negative energy and in my eyes there is enough negativity on this Earth now, I don't have to add to it so I give it to the Universe for It to do with the energy as it sees fit.
Empaths are passionate people, we feel for humans yes, but also for the animals and the wild life that looms around us. We are at home with nature. Now I am not the camping type but I know many empaths that are and that is the way they regain their composure. For me it's a walk in the rain. It cleansing anything and everything I pick up and it restores my energy, gives me a chance to feel like me again. So when there is a storm pouring down and you see a woman or man walking in the rain, not running to get out of it, they are probably giving them self an energy boosts! When I come in out of the storm I usually am calm, at peace, happy. I am centered and so happy to be me.
An empath is often a problem solver, thinker, and enjoys studying any thing and everything. Wow that is me. I love helping people solve their problems, I think things to death, and I love research and reading once again anything and everything. Knowledge is the key to it all. An empath is here to help people. No matter where I am or what I am doing, someone with a problem or an issue will find me. No I don't wear a sign saying STEP INTO MY OFFICE! They just find me. We will talk about how next time.
A Walk In The Rain
The rain is tapping quietly on the ground,
Lightning flashes and thunder pounds,
Lightning and thunder you do not fear,
Walking in the storm with no rain gear,
Feeling the cool rain washing over you,
Too bad others do not have a clue,
Your energy level is once again restored,
You use the storm as your sword,
To slash away all the negative junk,
In a one, two, three slam dunk,
All the negative energy washed away,
Clouds now blue no longer grey,
Your mood is lighter more carefree,
The way you should always be,
So with that first flash of light,
And clash of thunders might,
Put on your walking shoes,
Let the rain wash away your blues,
Then dance merrily along the way,
No more blues it is time to play!
To Be Continued!
I started talking to you about empaths when we met last. There is little written out there that would help someone who is walking this path. The other night I was watching some wacko TV show about psychics. I am not saying psychics are wacko just this show. It upsets me to see shows like this because people do not realize that no matter what this is a script. If they don't like the way the show is going they can fix it their way. What upset me was this woman's description of being an empath, she told the person she was talking to that her empathic abilities made her clairvoyant! Nope, not true, not all empaths are clairvoyant. Empaths feel the energy of those around you. Can an empath invade someones energy? Yes they can and they should no better. You do not enter someone else's energy without first asking permission.
Is an empath intuitive? Yes they are. Being an empath you would posses the gift of being intuitive being able to read other peoples energy. You may not see this as a gift at first but in time you will learn to use it and appreciate it. I know I heard people when I was growing up, saying I was over sensitive. If I just learned to relax all would be alright. Empaths are highly sensitive but it's more than just sensitivity. Empaths can sense spiritual and physical sensitivities of others as well as their motivations and intentions. It's one of the reasons I had a hard time touching others. To this day I am cautious who I give my hugs to and extend my hand to. I have had instances where I have felt a person was sick without them even knowing. I have sensed the death of someone before it happened just by the touch of their hand in mine and I prayed I was wrong.
Being empathic is not like learning to read tarot cards. If you are empathic it is not something you can learn to do. You either are or aren't. At first, as an empath, I found I was always opened feeling others energy. It was hard for me to cope. Then I discovered a way to cleanse myself of all the earth bound energies I was picking up. It was very simple. I a small jar and put sea salt in it. Then added a small amount of water to allow the salt to moisten but stay thick enough to rub on the body. I used this salt from head to toe when I enter the shower. Then I was it off, washing all that earth bound energy away. After words I shower, wash my hair and relax.
I protect myself from gathering up these energies that knock me off course, I put a protective shield around myself. I am not talking about a real visible shield. I am talking about imagining a white circle of protection all around me with a dome like cover. Tucked safely inside I can cope with the energies around me. Of course if I do not put it around me before I enter into the confusion and chaos it is harder to get it in place so before you go into a situation that you know knocks you off balance, you should protect yourself. This works for me but it may not work for you. Each person needs to find what is best for them.
It is important for an empath to be grounded. To try to avoid the unpleasantries you know are harmful to you. For me it is the evening news, horror shows, thrillers that show ghosts doing real damage to innocent people! You get the picture? What I do is avoid these things. I can't tell you the last time I deliberately watched the news, I don't do horror shows and I avoid anything that even remotely looks like a psychic thriller with ghosts killing people. I don't need the negative energy it throws at me.
When I feel all out of sorts I take a deep breath, putting myself back into my body, grounding myself. Getting present in your body is very important and grounding essential to do this. Grounding isn't hard at all. It is best to close your eyes, now focus on your energy. You need to get your energy under control so you can push it away, out of your body. Place your hands on your Solar Plexus palms toward you. Now ask for all the unwanted negative energy to be gathered up. You can ask to yourself or speak the words out loud. Feel all that energy build up. You may even see a ball forming in you stomach area. I like to work it up to my head and out my crown Chakra others like to push it into out the bottom of their body into an imaginary bucket of water. The choice is yours whatever works best for you. I was taught if you push the energy out through your feet into the earth you contaminate the earth with all that negative energy and in my eyes there is enough negativity on this Earth now, I don't have to add to it so I give it to the Universe for It to do with the energy as it sees fit.
Empaths are passionate people, we feel for humans yes, but also for the animals and the wild life that looms around us. We are at home with nature. Now I am not the camping type but I know many empaths that are and that is the way they regain their composure. For me it's a walk in the rain. It cleansing anything and everything I pick up and it restores my energy, gives me a chance to feel like me again. So when there is a storm pouring down and you see a woman or man walking in the rain, not running to get out of it, they are probably giving them self an energy boosts! When I come in out of the storm I usually am calm, at peace, happy. I am centered and so happy to be me.
An empath is often a problem solver, thinker, and enjoys studying any thing and everything. Wow that is me. I love helping people solve their problems, I think things to death, and I love research and reading once again anything and everything. Knowledge is the key to it all. An empath is here to help people. No matter where I am or what I am doing, someone with a problem or an issue will find me. No I don't wear a sign saying STEP INTO MY OFFICE! They just find me. We will talk about how next time.
A Walk In The Rain
The rain is tapping quietly on the ground,
Lightning flashes and thunder pounds,
Lightning and thunder you do not fear,
Walking in the storm with no rain gear,
Feeling the cool rain washing over you,
Too bad others do not have a clue,
Your energy level is once again restored,
You use the storm as your sword,
To slash away all the negative junk,
In a one, two, three slam dunk,
All the negative energy washed away,
Clouds now blue no longer grey,
Your mood is lighter more carefree,
The way you should always be,
So with that first flash of light,
And clash of thunders might,
Put on your walking shoes,
Let the rain wash away your blues,
Then dance merrily along the way,
No more blues it is time to play!
To Be Continued!
Saturday, January 26, 2013
Are You Empathic?
Good Morning and Blessings Everyone!
Imagine being only eight years old and feeling the emotions of those around you and not knowing how to handle it or what is happening to you. Imagine feeling sick to your stomach at a moments notice for no apparent reason. Going to doctor after doctor only to be told there was nothing wrong. Once again Great Grandma to the rescue with a blend of Chamomile tea to settle the stomach and advice that in time I will understand. She told me I may not see it now as a gift but as time goes on I will learn to understand how this gift works.
To all the empaths out there, how many times have you been diagnosed with some sort of nervous or personality disorder? How many times has a doctor put you on medication to get it under control? True the medication works but inside you feel as if you have lost a part of yourself. You begin to wonder if there isn't a better way. Now you begin to research more than the medical aspect of what is going on with you and turn to a higher level. You start seeking a spiritual relief and in doing so you begin to realize you are an empath from the research you are doing. I am not saying everyone with a nervous or personality disorder is empathic but some may be. For me I was diagnosed at a young age with colitis, a nervous stomach. Made sense to me after all I was only a kid. I took the medication prescribed and tried to go on with my life.
As time went on it got worse so they changed medications and I started to feel as if I would never be able to cope again without this medication. I was only eighteen years old when the doctors thought Valium was the way to treat me. Back then it was the drug of choice but not for me. I had just lost my Great Grandmother a few months before my eighteenth birthday. I felt lost and alone. No one to talk to about all these things going on in my head until one day I realized she was still here, still with me. All I needed to do was to talk to her. I started to feel more and more like myself without the medication. I started to seek out answers. Of course the age of computers was no where around yet so the library was my home every Saturday afternoon and whenever I could get there during the week but I had to be careful in those days what types of books I borrowed. After all it wasn't as though Witches were so popular back then. Trust me in the 70's it was frowned upon that is why everything had to be kept so quiet. There weren't even any books in my public library written on the subject! Even if there were, the librarian was a Friend of the family who would undoubtedly go back and speak to my parents.
No it wasn't until I was much older that the age of computers came into play and I found the wonders of the Internet. It wasn't until I was older that I discovered I was not alone on this path and there were those out there willing to share their knowledge and experiences with others so they would not go through the horrors we had experienced growing up "different." These men and women found a way to pay it forward. For most of them they did it out of the kindness of their heart. They taught those who wanted to learn because they believed in the person they were teaching. NO CHARGE! Knowledge is free and it truly is if you have this amazing Internet at your service, knowledge is free. It's the experience you want hear about. To savor and learn about. It is the experiences of others that teach you the mistakes they made and the successes they have had along their Spiritual Path.
Then one day I met the most amazing Woman on my path to spiritual enlightenment, Mama Cinn. She taught me so much and she believed in me. She shared her knowledge free of charge. When I asked her how I could ever repay her for all she did for me she told me to "Pay it Forward." Over the last eighteen years I have done exactly as she requested.
One thing I remember as if it was yesterday was a conversation I had with her about being diagnosed with social anxiety disorder. I hated being around people, had the feeling of needing to run no matter where I was. She listened to me tell her about my life and how these things developed over the years. Then she said, "May I ask you a couple of questions?" Of course she could she was my mentor she could ask me anything.
She asked me if I take notice of the environment of a room as soon as I enter it. I told her when I went into a room I could feel if it was right or wrong for me. Even the hair on the back of my neck would stand up and warn me to leave. Next she wanted to know if I ever noticed that the moods of the people around me affected me any way. Wow was she kidding me or not? Of course they affected me. There were times if someone came near me crying I would feel as if I was going to throw up. I couldn't get away from them fast enough. If they were happy I actually felt drunk! She said nothing yet just asked me how a large crowd made me fee. I told her I would feel as if I wanted to run away. I started to get uncomfortable as if I couldnt' breath even if I was at a parade I needed to leave. Could I sense the pain of others was her next thing. I had to think about that so I asked physical pain or emotional pain. She wanted to know either way. In thinking about it I realized yes in both cases. If someone was sick in the hospital with pain associated with the illness I could feel their pain, I could also feel the anguish of someone who had lost a loved one. I just thought I was imagining it. Now she had my interest. Maybe I wasn't as off the wall as I thought.
She continued to ask me questions like causal touching, taking hold of someones hand to shake hello, or a gentle kiss on the cheek as a sign of respect. I avoided this like a disease because it made me feel uneasy. She wanted to know how I handled confrontation of any sort. What happened to me if I even thought about the possibility of confrontation. That one was easy, I would get the feeling of uneasiness in my stomach as if something in there was pacing back and forth. I felt my entire body go on hypersensitive and I would shake from head to toe. Does it take much to hurt my feels and what happens when my feelings are hurt. I thought in that department I wasn't much different than most woman. Yes my feelings get hurt very easily so much so I usually end up in tears.
She was quiet for a moment or two then I asked her, "OK, doc, what do I have?" I explained to her these are the reasons they are telling me I have social anxiety disorder and I am in need of counselling however I do not feel it is doing anything at all for me. She laughed and said it wouldn't do anything for me since I do not have social anxiety disorder. Now she had my interest. She said from the time she has gotten to know me she realized I was just like her, I am an empath. Interesting and scary at the same time because the only thing I knew about empaths I saw on the ever famous TV show Charmed and all the character experienced was pain and suffering. How the hell was that a gift!
If you are empath it means you are affected by other people's energies. You are unconsciously influenced by others' desires, wishes, thoughts, and moods. At times you feel as if you are on an emotional roller coaster. Talk about PMS! Wow, this is ten times worse and comes on you at any moment, not just a particular time of the month! Now that I peaked your curiosity, lets continue this conversation a later!
An Empath
Why do I feel so lost and alone,
Pain and hurting deep to the bone,
But wait that mood is no longer there,
No more sorrow and despair,
Nope, now I want to go out and play,
Skipping merrily along the way,
Wow an emotional roller coaster I am on,
Here one minute than gone,
There must be something wrong with me,
Something a doctor can not see,
For when I touch you on the hand,
The emotions I cannot stand,
A bit sensitive I would say,
Oh boy, how did I ever get this way,
Then a whisper in my ear,
To relax, have no more fear,
To trust the gift bestowed to me,
To let it grow so I can see,
The direction it is to take,
Allow my senses to awake,
So I can help those in need,
Follow their path and succeed,
For when they seek me out to talk,
I can help them learn to walk,
This very special path they are on,
Then all their fears will be gone,
They will understand what they are,
An Empath, a shinning star!
To be Continued......
Imagine being only eight years old and feeling the emotions of those around you and not knowing how to handle it or what is happening to you. Imagine feeling sick to your stomach at a moments notice for no apparent reason. Going to doctor after doctor only to be told there was nothing wrong. Once again Great Grandma to the rescue with a blend of Chamomile tea to settle the stomach and advice that in time I will understand. She told me I may not see it now as a gift but as time goes on I will learn to understand how this gift works.
To all the empaths out there, how many times have you been diagnosed with some sort of nervous or personality disorder? How many times has a doctor put you on medication to get it under control? True the medication works but inside you feel as if you have lost a part of yourself. You begin to wonder if there isn't a better way. Now you begin to research more than the medical aspect of what is going on with you and turn to a higher level. You start seeking a spiritual relief and in doing so you begin to realize you are an empath from the research you are doing. I am not saying everyone with a nervous or personality disorder is empathic but some may be. For me I was diagnosed at a young age with colitis, a nervous stomach. Made sense to me after all I was only a kid. I took the medication prescribed and tried to go on with my life.
As time went on it got worse so they changed medications and I started to feel as if I would never be able to cope again without this medication. I was only eighteen years old when the doctors thought Valium was the way to treat me. Back then it was the drug of choice but not for me. I had just lost my Great Grandmother a few months before my eighteenth birthday. I felt lost and alone. No one to talk to about all these things going on in my head until one day I realized she was still here, still with me. All I needed to do was to talk to her. I started to feel more and more like myself without the medication. I started to seek out answers. Of course the age of computers was no where around yet so the library was my home every Saturday afternoon and whenever I could get there during the week but I had to be careful in those days what types of books I borrowed. After all it wasn't as though Witches were so popular back then. Trust me in the 70's it was frowned upon that is why everything had to be kept so quiet. There weren't even any books in my public library written on the subject! Even if there were, the librarian was a Friend of the family who would undoubtedly go back and speak to my parents.
No it wasn't until I was much older that the age of computers came into play and I found the wonders of the Internet. It wasn't until I was older that I discovered I was not alone on this path and there were those out there willing to share their knowledge and experiences with others so they would not go through the horrors we had experienced growing up "different." These men and women found a way to pay it forward. For most of them they did it out of the kindness of their heart. They taught those who wanted to learn because they believed in the person they were teaching. NO CHARGE! Knowledge is free and it truly is if you have this amazing Internet at your service, knowledge is free. It's the experience you want hear about. To savor and learn about. It is the experiences of others that teach you the mistakes they made and the successes they have had along their Spiritual Path.
Then one day I met the most amazing Woman on my path to spiritual enlightenment, Mama Cinn. She taught me so much and she believed in me. She shared her knowledge free of charge. When I asked her how I could ever repay her for all she did for me she told me to "Pay it Forward." Over the last eighteen years I have done exactly as she requested.
One thing I remember as if it was yesterday was a conversation I had with her about being diagnosed with social anxiety disorder. I hated being around people, had the feeling of needing to run no matter where I was. She listened to me tell her about my life and how these things developed over the years. Then she said, "May I ask you a couple of questions?" Of course she could she was my mentor she could ask me anything.
She asked me if I take notice of the environment of a room as soon as I enter it. I told her when I went into a room I could feel if it was right or wrong for me. Even the hair on the back of my neck would stand up and warn me to leave. Next she wanted to know if I ever noticed that the moods of the people around me affected me any way. Wow was she kidding me or not? Of course they affected me. There were times if someone came near me crying I would feel as if I was going to throw up. I couldn't get away from them fast enough. If they were happy I actually felt drunk! She said nothing yet just asked me how a large crowd made me fee. I told her I would feel as if I wanted to run away. I started to get uncomfortable as if I couldnt' breath even if I was at a parade I needed to leave. Could I sense the pain of others was her next thing. I had to think about that so I asked physical pain or emotional pain. She wanted to know either way. In thinking about it I realized yes in both cases. If someone was sick in the hospital with pain associated with the illness I could feel their pain, I could also feel the anguish of someone who had lost a loved one. I just thought I was imagining it. Now she had my interest. Maybe I wasn't as off the wall as I thought.
She continued to ask me questions like causal touching, taking hold of someones hand to shake hello, or a gentle kiss on the cheek as a sign of respect. I avoided this like a disease because it made me feel uneasy. She wanted to know how I handled confrontation of any sort. What happened to me if I even thought about the possibility of confrontation. That one was easy, I would get the feeling of uneasiness in my stomach as if something in there was pacing back and forth. I felt my entire body go on hypersensitive and I would shake from head to toe. Does it take much to hurt my feels and what happens when my feelings are hurt. I thought in that department I wasn't much different than most woman. Yes my feelings get hurt very easily so much so I usually end up in tears.
She was quiet for a moment or two then I asked her, "OK, doc, what do I have?" I explained to her these are the reasons they are telling me I have social anxiety disorder and I am in need of counselling however I do not feel it is doing anything at all for me. She laughed and said it wouldn't do anything for me since I do not have social anxiety disorder. Now she had my interest. She said from the time she has gotten to know me she realized I was just like her, I am an empath. Interesting and scary at the same time because the only thing I knew about empaths I saw on the ever famous TV show Charmed and all the character experienced was pain and suffering. How the hell was that a gift!
If you are empath it means you are affected by other people's energies. You are unconsciously influenced by others' desires, wishes, thoughts, and moods. At times you feel as if you are on an emotional roller coaster. Talk about PMS! Wow, this is ten times worse and comes on you at any moment, not just a particular time of the month! Now that I peaked your curiosity, lets continue this conversation a later!
An Empath
Why do I feel so lost and alone,
Pain and hurting deep to the bone,
But wait that mood is no longer there,
No more sorrow and despair,
Nope, now I want to go out and play,
Skipping merrily along the way,
Wow an emotional roller coaster I am on,
Here one minute than gone,
There must be something wrong with me,
Something a doctor can not see,
For when I touch you on the hand,
The emotions I cannot stand,
A bit sensitive I would say,
Oh boy, how did I ever get this way,
Then a whisper in my ear,
To relax, have no more fear,
To trust the gift bestowed to me,
To let it grow so I can see,
The direction it is to take,
Allow my senses to awake,
So I can help those in need,
Follow their path and succeed,
For when they seek me out to talk,
I can help them learn to walk,
This very special path they are on,
Then all their fears will be gone,
They will understand what they are,
An Empath, a shinning star!
To be Continued......
And the Eagle Soars!
Good Evening and Blessings Everyone!
As far back as I could remember I always loved the image of the American Bald Eagle. When I was a little girl I used to get all excited at the sight of one. The exciting thing was whenever I wanted to see the Eagle all I had to do was close my eyes. No, I was not dreaming. He was flying to me, watching over me, and guiding me. Oh I didn't know he was my guide of course, not until I was much older.
No matter how I felt, how my day was going, all I had to do was sit down, close my eyes and call out to him. As a child I remember closing my eyes and saying, "Where are you?" After a few minutes he came flying into my sight. He was and still is amazing. I have always loved to watch as he glided along the darkness effortlessly. I say darkness because my eyes were closed whenever I called to him.
I have said time and again through out my writing I was a little bit different than most. I used to tell my mother about the beautiful bird that not only would fly to me whenever I closed my eyes but he would talk to me when I was sad. Once again she didn't have the answers so she told me not to tell people things like that. My sister, used to listen to me tell her about the things I would see and being only a year old than myself she didn't have the answers either. She thought I was making up stories and told my mother I was going to be a very good writer some day. As I grew I learned not to discuss these things with people who did not understand.
Growing up I spent hours alone in my room because I always enjoyed the solitude. It was my escape from all the things that made me feel out of sorts. I would sit there on the floor next to my record player listening to the music play, with my eyes closed. While I did this I would be able to see through the eyes of the Eagle in flight. All the beautiful colors he could bring to me brought me a peacefulness. He always knew what calmed me down.
Of course the one person I could tell about Eagle was my Great Grandmother. The wonderful thing is she never thought of me as different or crazy. She is the first one who told me I was blessed. She said "L'aquila è un uccello molto potente. Essa rappresenta Dio, il suo Spirito," translation "the Eagle was a powerful bird. It represents God, his Spirit." Of course I did my usual and asked her why he came to me, there was nothing special about me. She would smile her knowing Grandmother smile and told me, "Ancora una volta si mette in discussione il perché. Non si può visualizzare sei speciale, ma i doni che ricevono da Dio, si dice qualcosa di diverso," translation, "Once again you question why. You may not see you are special but the gifts you are receiving from God, they say something different." The way she explained Eagle to me was for me to think of him as my Guardian Angel. To listen to him when he talked to me but above all do not tell anyone any more about him because they just didn't understand. Eagle has stayed with me over the years. He has taught me so much even now. The lessons never stop and they shouldn't.
As I grew older I learned all I could about the meaning of totem animals. These animal signs have been found through out history. When we incorporate our totem animal into our lives it clarifies our spiritual goals, opens things up for us. Connecting with your animal totem gives us a deeper understanding of your spiritual goals. It opens your mind giving us a richer and more fulfilling way of life.
I was going through some really tough times in my life a few years ago and I discovered my friend of some fifty years was gone. No more Eagle, no matter how much I tried I could not call him to me. He would not come, would not show me what I need to know. I felt lost and alone. Most of all I was scared. It wasn't that he wasn't there it was that I could not break through my own blocks to get to him. Too much stress and at times anger ruled my mind. I lost my sister, had other deaths and losses in my life at that time which clouded my mind. It took a long time for him to show himself again.
As a matter of fact when he did, he was no longer this huge magnificent bird but instead, when I finally allowed him to come back to me, he was small. As if he had been born all over again when in actuality I had been. I was starting all over again down a spiritual path I had lost my way on. In time he would once again grow and this time he is even larger than he was before. If possible even more magnificent looking.
The growth of Eagle is symbolic of my growth, my spiritual growth. As I began to study once again and reconnect with my inner self, my spiritual side, Eagle took on a new form. He showed me I was advancing down the right path, by the way he showed himself to me. I was set on my Spiritual Path before I was born. I had lessons to learn but I often made it hard for myself by not listening to those who were sent to guide me. About six months ago a message came to me to go back to the beginning. I wasn't actually sure what that meant but in time I realized going back to the beginning meant going back to my roots. Not my family tree roots but my spiritual path.
So where do I begin? I know, I finally figured it out. I needed to go back, not just to what I learned as a child during my religious studies, but to a time in my life when things were simpler. I also needed to reconnect with the one person in my life that always believed in me, believed in my gifts. Yep, you guested it, my Great Grandmother.
Over the past few months I have learned new ways to meditate and reconnect. In doing so I have found a peacefulness inside myself. I have found to be true, what I always knew. Maria Terese is always there for me not just as my Grandmother but as my guide. Each day is a new awakening and a better understanding of what is going on around me. Each new morning brings a better understanding of who I am and why I am. I want to thank all those who have been here to guide me through out my life. Without you I would not be!
Majestic Bird
A majestic bird in flight,
What a beautiful sight,
If only I could share this with you,
So you could see him too,
But he is my special friend,
Sent to guide and help me transcend,
To enlighten me as I walk along,
The Spiritual Path I now belong,
He comes to me as I sit,
Quietly for a little bit,
Eyes closed tightly no light at all,
In the distance he is small,
Growing larger as he moves in,
I ask him where he has been,
When he gets closer to me,
Through is eyes I can see,
All the things I need to know,
That will one day help me grow,
The knowledge that he shares with me,
He gives to me completely free,
The only request he has made,
Is for me to take the time and trade,
This knowledge with others as I go,
So everyone can learn and grow,
Pay It Forward was his request,
And I will be truly blessed.
To be Continued!
As far back as I could remember I always loved the image of the American Bald Eagle. When I was a little girl I used to get all excited at the sight of one. The exciting thing was whenever I wanted to see the Eagle all I had to do was close my eyes. No, I was not dreaming. He was flying to me, watching over me, and guiding me. Oh I didn't know he was my guide of course, not until I was much older.
No matter how I felt, how my day was going, all I had to do was sit down, close my eyes and call out to him. As a child I remember closing my eyes and saying, "Where are you?" After a few minutes he came flying into my sight. He was and still is amazing. I have always loved to watch as he glided along the darkness effortlessly. I say darkness because my eyes were closed whenever I called to him.
I have said time and again through out my writing I was a little bit different than most. I used to tell my mother about the beautiful bird that not only would fly to me whenever I closed my eyes but he would talk to me when I was sad. Once again she didn't have the answers so she told me not to tell people things like that. My sister, used to listen to me tell her about the things I would see and being only a year old than myself she didn't have the answers either. She thought I was making up stories and told my mother I was going to be a very good writer some day. As I grew I learned not to discuss these things with people who did not understand.
Growing up I spent hours alone in my room because I always enjoyed the solitude. It was my escape from all the things that made me feel out of sorts. I would sit there on the floor next to my record player listening to the music play, with my eyes closed. While I did this I would be able to see through the eyes of the Eagle in flight. All the beautiful colors he could bring to me brought me a peacefulness. He always knew what calmed me down.
Of course the one person I could tell about Eagle was my Great Grandmother. The wonderful thing is she never thought of me as different or crazy. She is the first one who told me I was blessed. She said "L'aquila è un uccello molto potente. Essa rappresenta Dio, il suo Spirito," translation "the Eagle was a powerful bird. It represents God, his Spirit." Of course I did my usual and asked her why he came to me, there was nothing special about me. She would smile her knowing Grandmother smile and told me, "Ancora una volta si mette in discussione il perché. Non si può visualizzare sei speciale, ma i doni che ricevono da Dio, si dice qualcosa di diverso," translation, "Once again you question why. You may not see you are special but the gifts you are receiving from God, they say something different." The way she explained Eagle to me was for me to think of him as my Guardian Angel. To listen to him when he talked to me but above all do not tell anyone any more about him because they just didn't understand. Eagle has stayed with me over the years. He has taught me so much even now. The lessons never stop and they shouldn't.
As I grew older I learned all I could about the meaning of totem animals. These animal signs have been found through out history. When we incorporate our totem animal into our lives it clarifies our spiritual goals, opens things up for us. Connecting with your animal totem gives us a deeper understanding of your spiritual goals. It opens your mind giving us a richer and more fulfilling way of life.
I was going through some really tough times in my life a few years ago and I discovered my friend of some fifty years was gone. No more Eagle, no matter how much I tried I could not call him to me. He would not come, would not show me what I need to know. I felt lost and alone. Most of all I was scared. It wasn't that he wasn't there it was that I could not break through my own blocks to get to him. Too much stress and at times anger ruled my mind. I lost my sister, had other deaths and losses in my life at that time which clouded my mind. It took a long time for him to show himself again.
As a matter of fact when he did, he was no longer this huge magnificent bird but instead, when I finally allowed him to come back to me, he was small. As if he had been born all over again when in actuality I had been. I was starting all over again down a spiritual path I had lost my way on. In time he would once again grow and this time he is even larger than he was before. If possible even more magnificent looking.
The growth of Eagle is symbolic of my growth, my spiritual growth. As I began to study once again and reconnect with my inner self, my spiritual side, Eagle took on a new form. He showed me I was advancing down the right path, by the way he showed himself to me. I was set on my Spiritual Path before I was born. I had lessons to learn but I often made it hard for myself by not listening to those who were sent to guide me. About six months ago a message came to me to go back to the beginning. I wasn't actually sure what that meant but in time I realized going back to the beginning meant going back to my roots. Not my family tree roots but my spiritual path.
So where do I begin? I know, I finally figured it out. I needed to go back, not just to what I learned as a child during my religious studies, but to a time in my life when things were simpler. I also needed to reconnect with the one person in my life that always believed in me, believed in my gifts. Yep, you guested it, my Great Grandmother.
Over the past few months I have learned new ways to meditate and reconnect. In doing so I have found a peacefulness inside myself. I have found to be true, what I always knew. Maria Terese is always there for me not just as my Grandmother but as my guide. Each day is a new awakening and a better understanding of what is going on around me. Each new morning brings a better understanding of who I am and why I am. I want to thank all those who have been here to guide me through out my life. Without you I would not be!
Majestic Bird
A majestic bird in flight,
What a beautiful sight,
If only I could share this with you,
So you could see him too,
But he is my special friend,
Sent to guide and help me transcend,
To enlighten me as I walk along,
The Spiritual Path I now belong,
He comes to me as I sit,
Quietly for a little bit,
Eyes closed tightly no light at all,
In the distance he is small,
Growing larger as he moves in,
I ask him where he has been,
When he gets closer to me,
Through is eyes I can see,
All the things I need to know,
That will one day help me grow,
The knowledge that he shares with me,
He gives to me completely free,
The only request he has made,
Is for me to take the time and trade,
This knowledge with others as I go,
So everyone can learn and grow,
Pay It Forward was his request,
And I will be truly blessed.
To be Continued!
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