Thank you God, Spirit, The Divine

Good Morning and Brightest Everyone!

Sometimes we lose ourselves in life. I know I have said that many times but as an empath we can, at times, find ourselves drowning but never really know it till we hit the top of the water once again and take a deep breath. Of course there is no way of telling how long that dunk in the water will last until you decide it's time to once again take a breath and re-join the living.

For me it's been a while. I would have to say at least three years up and down in the water fighting my way out. One event after another and each time I reached the top of the water to take a breath I thought and honestly believed, this is it, I'm done, I can now move on, but that was not what happened. A little over a year ago I stopped doing everything. I stopped writing, I stopped listening to Spirit, I shut it all out. You know I didn't even realize I did until one night during Halloween week 2015, I got a visit in the middle of the night.

I went to sleep and was at that stage of where you are just about falling asleep but still in this time and I had a vision that literally woke me up. As I felt myself drifting off to sleep I also felt my body begin to tingle. For me that's a warning something is about to happen that isn't going to be very nice. My room became darker and darker and out of the wall near my bed, a wall that led to my closet, came a dark figure I always called my Watcher. Watching me to see when I was at my weakest so he could drag me to the darkness. He has been around popping into my life since I was a little girl. It's why my great grandmother and grandmother always said I was given this gift for a reason since this Watcher is so interested in taking my light.

Well as he came out of the wall and attacked me I fought him off. I could feel him scratching me and then he bit my arm but I kept fighting. Kept telling him he wasn't wanted here and he couldn't have me. With that a white light came into the room and I could feel a warm hand on my arm and heard someone telling me to come to the light and it will be ok, not to be afraid. As I moved towards this light a hand reached out and tossed the Watcher into the darkness off the side of the bed. The voice in the light became familiar to me as she said "never lose sight of the light, pray and believe because we are always there watching over you." The image of the person coming out of the light was now clear to me. It was my sister, Donna, talking to me, telling me it will all be ok as she held my hand and placed hers over the spot where the Watcher had bit me. I came out of my vision calling out her name, reaching for her but of course she was no longer there. I could still feel the spot where the Watcher bit me and there was a slight reddness but nothing else. The mark of his bit was gone. I had my wake up call. It was time to re-join the living. To stop letting everything pull me down and to welcome myself back in my body.

Since then they have started to talk to me again, whispering sweet nothings in my ear. Reminding me of who and what I am. Yes I am a Witch, I am an Empath, but I am so much more and I need to remember that. I am a human being with feelings. I laugh, I cry, I sing, I dance, and at times I have pain. Pain from within the heart that needs time to heal and I often forget to take that time and in doing so I crash. This crash was big and I could feel myself slipping every day and not knowing how to climb up that slippery slop and regain my footing.

I am happy I now have my footing back and I am on the right track. I didn't sit down and start to write in my blog again the next day because I wanted to make sure I really and truely was back on the right track. I am being creative again, writing again, and listening to the angels, I'm singing and dancing and living my life with my eyes opened once again. Craft ideas and the desire to write are strong and pushing me everyday into all hours of the night. I am beginning to lose weight and feel a bounce in my step. I am me once again and being told as I write this, "Welcome back, we missed you." I missed them too.

My message here is, we may all think we know what it is we need because we "understand" what an empath is and we "know" how to handle the ups and downs of this course of life we are on but we often forget that while helping others we need to remember to take the time to help ourselves. Remember to go to the Spirit, The Divine, God whomever you go to, go there. Go there and ask to have all the negativity removed that you picked up during the course of your day. Go there and ask for guidance so you can find your way clear of all the darkness that seeps in. Go there and give your soul a cleansing and ask for the help you may need to get through all that may be thrown in your path but most of all go there believing in what you are doing. Don't lose hope, don't lose sight of who you are, but most importantly don't stop believing. Don't lose sight of your guides, don't ever lose sight of the Divine for you are never alone. If needed call out for that hug, close your eyes, and feel the warmth of the air around you, the strength of the wings engulfing you, believe from deep inside your soul, then take a deep breath and breathe.

I was overwhelmed and to protect myself I shut down, they shut me down and then called me back when the time was right. I forgot to call out for help when I felt myself drowning so they had to let me go so I could learn yet another lesson. We are not the healers in this realm even though we can lend an ear to a friend in need, hold the hand of someone in pain, or lay our hands on someone for healing we are not the healers we are only the tool the spirit world needs to the work we call them to do. If we do not ask for the healing they cannot come through us to do the work. The way they grant us these gifts we have to grant them use of our bodies. Together we are a team, separate we are souls walking in two different realms struggling to understand and help those around us which won't happen if we do not join together and believe in one another.

To my team I thank you for the wake up call, for hearing my prayers and pulling me out of the water. Thank you for never giving up on me and for always watching over me. Thank you for being by side and waiting for me to return. It feels good to be in touch again and be myself once more.



Breathe and Believe
by Toni Gamarro

I heard your calls in the middle of the night,
trying to wake me and set things right.
I turned a deaf ear to the voices I heard,
my life had become blurred.
I fought hard to find my way back,
to set myself on the right track,
but I forgot this is not something to do alone,
even if I am a seasoned old crone.
I ignored all the messages sent my way,
didn't want to hear what they had to say.
Not sure why I shut them out,
perhaps because I had my doubt,
that what I heard came from the Divine,
so I kept looking for a sign.
No matter what messages they sent my way,
it was hard for me to stand and not sway,
until that door opened and you walked in,
reminding me light over dark will always win.
So I swam hard to get to the shore,
to stand on my own two feet once more,
knowing you are always by my side,
I'm sorry I chose to  hide,
but thank you for not giving up on me,
for pulling me out of the sea,
for reminding me to breathe and believe,
to open myself up to recieve,
all the wonderful messages you send my way,
as I bow my head and pray.



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Healing Emthpaths

Good Morning and Blessings Everyone!

Today I want to talk about Physical or Healing Empaths. It has amazed me as I walk this path I am on, how many people follow the path of reiki. Not that I don't believe in it by no means. I firmly believe there are many reiki masters that are in fact amazing. I will not stand here and say all Reiki people are healers because I have met many who have taken it up just because it spiked their interest. These people really do not do much with it they just enjoyed studying it and having the knowledge. As I have said before kowledge is power.

To be a physical or healing empath is about reading the body. Listening to what it has to tell you. Finding the inner energy, the life force, just as in reiki. I have a wonderful friend who is a reiki master and an amazing healer. She is of course empathic on so many levels, not just healing. I used to think I could never be that good to help anyone who was ill. But still another friend who crossed my path and has enlighted me has taught me if I listen to my innerself, to my guides, and follow their direction than I too can put my healing and physical empathy to good use. I have never been trained in reiki and do not pretend to be knowledgable on the subject. I do however have the blessings of the angels and Spirit when I lay my hands on someone.

Let's talk about the physical aspect of being a physical empath. Once again I am reaching into my life to help you better understand. From when I was a young girl I always got sick to my stomach if someone was ill. I actually felt nauseous at the sight of anyone even in pain. It would feel as if someone had a grip on my tummy even if the person who was feeling ill had a bad headache. Oh my, forget about it if there was anyone around me with a stomach virus. I got sick just because they were. Not fun!

When I was in fourth grade my mother had an accident and got her arm caught in the washing machine. Back then they didn't have all the safe guards they do now. At the sight of my mom and all the pain she had to go through I became so ill I ended up in the hospital! The results were a nervous stomach but now I know it was more than that. I was feeling my mothers pain. It was devestating. Over the years I have experienced this on many occassions but it wasn't until three years ago a woman walked in my store and introduced me to healing. Oh I always believed in healers and loved the idea that rieki is now being used in many hospitals, nursing homes, and in the treatment of cancer but I never believed for a moment that I was blessed enough to be able to heal anyone. Although my one friend kept trying to get me to study reiki I belive it is better that I do my work, "their way", Spirits way.

One day I had a customer come into my store who was not feeling well. I called a friend of mine who is an amazing healer. Unfortunately she was not able to come but told me I can do this myself and she would stay on the phone to help if I needed it. I told her now way, no how but she assured me the power I have flowing through my  hands was meant to help people not hurt them. I decided to listen to her and help this poor woman who was in so much pain emotionally and physically. As I laid my hands on her I could feel the enegy pull from her and through me. It was as if a magnet was pulling all the junk out of her and filtering it through me before returning the possitive energy back to her. The best way I could explain it is, the experience was like a spiritual dialysis treatment, where as the negative energy and all the pain is pulled out and then filtered back in with possitive healing energy.

Before I even started working on her I asked her inner person if it was ok for me to intrude into her body because it is in fact and intrusion and should be treated as such. I was about to invade her space and her body. I was given permission to proceed. I like to close my eyes when I work because I get different images of the garbage that is floating around in someones body. I might just get a lot of colors swirling around and at first they mix themselves up and turn mirky and black until I start to see them separate and start working their way towards the crown chakra and out of the body.  I begin to feel the release of energy flowing through my hands. The angels, my team and the person I am working on team, lets me know when I can let go. By now I am drained and looking forward to a cool water and some rest. On this particular woman it took about half an hour before I could feel the release. When we were finished she was exhaused as was I. I advised her as I do all my clients to rest when she went home because although my hands are no longer there they, "her team", was still working on her. Another thing I advise is no caffeen for a few hours but plenty of water because the energy in the healing dehydrates  you. A couple of days later she returned to my store telling me how wonderful she felt as if the weight of the world has been lifted.

Now I do not claim to be God/Spirit by no means. I do believe that Spirit has blessed many of us with the ability to heal. Just because I lay my hands on someone and allow the energy to flow through me to them does not mean I am all knowing, or all doing. In other words I am not God I can not heal without the presence of God/Spirit. I am Spirit's tool is how I see it. I lend my hands for the physical aspect of the healing, the angels bring in Spirit. So you see I do not heal I am just a tool. Very important, I do advise all my clients if they are being treated by a doctor to continue to be treated by a doctor. I stress how important it is to listen to their doctor and take any and all medications prescribed to them. I also advise them to seek professional help. If someone is all stressed out and comes to me to help relieve their stress I can and will lend my hands to give them some relief but I also tell them to see their physician. As for phyiscal alliments, a cut, chest pain, cancer, you need to see your doctor even if you are seeing a healer. Let's face it prayer never hurt anyone so to have a healer lay their hands on you and have the expertise of a doctor working on you at the same time can't hurt. That's Spirit and Science working hand and hand.

This is an amazing gift but it can also make you sick right along with the person you are healing. I am not saying you will get cancer if you help a cancer patient but if you feel their phsyical illness  you may feel their pain and all they are going through in their battle. No one can ever pepare themselves for that so be aware.

One very important lesson you have to remember is you are not the one doing the healing. Oh you are laying your hands and saying a prayer but you are not doing the healing because God/Spirit is the one doing the work. You have only agreed to let their energy pass through your body and into the subject because for what ever reason the subject has not been co-operative with its team in letting them in to do their job. We as healers are only and instrument that bridges the gap between the Spiritual realm and the human realm.

To be Continued......

Healing Empath

By Toni Gamarro

I feel nervous, can't settle down,
On my face I wear a frown,
I have no idea what the reason may be,
I try to relax sitting beneath a tree,
But my mind keeps going,
Causing negative energy to keep flowing,
So I close my eyes and rest my hands,
On my solar plexis as my inner self expands,
I call upon Spirit and welcome "them" in,
A deep breath or two and my healing can begin,
As I sit beneath the tree,
Spirit and my team work to heal me,
To take away all the garbage I have gathered up,
All the negative energy overflowing from my cup,
Picking it up and stiring the pot,
Gathering it all together so it won't rot,
They work hard to filter it through,
Negative energy is not easy to undo,
So I breath, relax and allow them to work,
Until I feel them push my hand away with a jerk,
I know now I can rest,
For my team is working, I am truely  blessed,
I blow a kiss and say a prayer,
Thanking them all for being there,
For blessing me with the gift of healing,
For helping me know what others are feeling,
For guiding me in whatever I do,
So I can help those I need to,
I close my prayer thanking all,
For always coming when I call!

Realizing You Are Empathic, Just the Begining!

Good Morning and Blessings Everyone!

When you realize you are empathic it's only the beginning. Finding out you are empathic is the start of finding out about your gifts. You see, I don't believe you can wake up one day and realize you are a medium. Hmmm medium, that's another word I don't use. for me I prefer seer. In order to get to that point, in order to be bestowed such a gift you have to begin some where. Emapthic abilities are the first of many you will be gifted with in your life if you embrace it. There are many who are empathic when they are children but for some reason they push it away. Perhaps they weren't meant to have it go any further than childhood or perhaps it scared them and those around them so they learned to surpress it. Whatever the reason it did not develop beyond you being a toddler.

A child senses your fear, your saddness, and even your happiness. It can influence the day this little one is going to have. For some children when they sense these emotions they are more subdued giving hugs and kisses even a gentle touch of the hand. It often amazes people how one so small could be so understanding. For other children the chaos is more than they can  handle leaving them cranky, needing attention and bringing more chaos to the day, just like any empath who is learning to deal with their gifts. Perhaps the little ones who are dealing with it and helping others get through their emotions are old soles. They've been here before, walked this path, and are back to learn some more and help others adjust. This is my theory.

Lets talk about a particular type of Empath, Intutive Empathy. I remember when someone first gave me the label as empath they told me I was intuitive. I thought "Wow." It was exciting to finally know there were more people out there like me. Remember when I was growing up this was something you did not talk about in public. Oh I knew my mother sensed things and my great grandmother was a healer but I had no idea there was anyone outside of my family that had these gifts. My family always told me not to repeat this to anyone because people would not understand. It wasn't until I found the internet that I realized I was not alone in this world and people like me were no longer feared but welcomed by many if for no other reason than curiousity.

So what is an Intuitive Empath? You are probably thinking it makes me psychic. For the most part you would be right since being an intuitive means sensing and feeling what is around you. Clairempathy as it is sometimes called, is to feel or sense that which is around you. Not just from humans but also from animals and your surroundings.

You know my theory teach from your own experience or knowledge shared so here we go. When I was a young girl I met  someone who was "special needs." She never bothered anyone in school but others would often tease her causing her to rock back and forth. She just wanted them to go away. I was only in first grade when I realized how "special" she really was. To see her like that and feel her emotions inside me made me sick. My tummy hurt. I would sit with her and talk quietly just so she would be able to calm down and go back to class after recess. Of course back then they didn't call it special needs but we have matured since then. I remember one day in particular we were in the school yard and some of the children were taunting her something terrible. It broke my heart. I went over to her and took her hand in mine telling her not to be upset they were naturally mean. She smiled at me and told me I was a good friend. I felt the tension in her begin to ease but the nervousness in my stomach picked up. I became so overwhelmed with it, I ended up getting sick to my stomach and my parents having to be called. I absorbed her energy so she could move on in a very trying day.

So how does this work? How do you feel or sense someone's emotions or physical ailments before they tell you? After years of discussing this with one friend or another I have come to believe it's due to ESP. Yep extra sensory perception. We feel a sense of duty to people to help set things right. To help them heal. Our ESP is in full swing and we move in to help.

When I watch the evening news I often find myself sick, upset and even crying for those poor people in one news story or another. Now I distance myself from the news. Although my husband often watches it I tend to not pay attention to it in great detail. If I do find it necessary to watch a news report and it has an affect on me I am sure to cleanse myself and once again put a protective shield around me.

As an intutive empath I need to protect myself just to start my day. I start off lighting a candle and asking all my angels and saints to gather around me and help me through my day. I ask Saint Michael to keep all harm away from me. I light incense to bring peace to my home. Next I sit quietly and mediate. I envision a protective shield around me, those I love, and my home. It's like putting myself inside the safety of a bubble but one that allows others to come near me but do no harm to my energy. I admit there are days it is hard to keep that shield up but I always make sure I release myself from the energy of anyone who may have gotten through.

Just because I put up my protection doesn't mean those who need me can not find me. I am not blocking them but allowing them access more freely. They find me through my energy, my light. Sometimes their enery gets through my shield while we talk but like I said I am not perfect so it does happen.

I have felt peoples fear, anger, upset, confussion, happiness, excitment, illnesses and so much more. I have felt when someone is about to cross over but I do not tell them or those they love. I do not feel giving anyone bad news is a good way to use my gift besides only the Divine knows for sure when that is going to happen. When my father was ill I felt him about to cross over at least three times before he did, so you see what I mean. When the time was right he was taken home.

Being an empath is a part of me, it is who I am and I am proud to be here to help those in need. I do not mind feeling others emotions but I do wish I could help them all. I had to learn the hard way if they don't want my help then they will not accept it and of course I cannot force the issue. The Divine/God puts me where I need to be when I need to be there. It's an amazing life, and amazing gift, to be able to talk to a total stranger and put their mind at ease, help heal their hearts, their soul if need be just by listening and saying a few quiet, kind words, and giving them a warm understanding smile. I thank God for my gifts and I am so happy my gifts have grown over the years allowing me to grow into the person I am today.

Intuitive Empath

By Toni Gamarro

If I touch your hand I can see,

What images Spirit sends to me,

I can feel your energy call out,

Negativity gives a shout,

While possitivity gives a glow,

Which helps the good energy to flow,

I can feel this energy as it dances around,

Bouncing from ceiling to ground,

It calls out to me so I know,

Which direction I am to go.

Do I take your hand and lend an ear?

Or is it better I don't get to near?

This is message your energy sends to me,

It pulls me near if I need to be,

My intuitiveness has never steared me wrong,

As a matter of fact it has made me strong,

Has given me the courage to open my third eye,

It has taught me not to question why,

To let the engery flow,

To light the path I am to go,

To open my mind and my body soul,

Not allow negativity to take it's toll,

I have had many lessons along the way,

From my path, at times, I did stray,

But something always pulls me back,

Reminds me to get back on track,

My empathic gifts are what sets me straight,

They remind me of my fate,

Of helping people who have lost their way,

Crossing over souls who can no longer stay,

Lending an ear to those in need,

Empathics are a special breed,

I will do the task set before me,

For an intuitive empath I am proud to be.

To Be Continued..............

All Empaths Are Not the Same!

Good Morning and Blessings Everyone!


Not all empaths are the same. We don't all see, feel, and hear. Some of us have one trait while others have many traits of being empathic. I have friends who can hear but not see, who can heal and feel to the extent of being ill, while others feel but not so drastically. To be an empath isn't something you adjust to in a day or two. It is something you must adjust to and learn how to cope with. At times it can be very challenging and painful.

If you were to look up empathic in the dictionary you would find it to say : the feeling that you understand and share another persons experiences and emotions. The ability to share someone elses feelings. 

When we feel someone elses feelings it could be either emotional or phsycial to the point of even feeling their illness. An empaths life can be confussing and difficult at times. Your life can seem as if it is on spiral turn full of chaos due to all the emotional ups and downs we go through. You feel the need to breathe and yet you can't seem to get yourself back in your body in order to do so. You are overwhelmed. Sound familuar? I am sure it does to many out there.

As I walk this path through life I realize there are many empaths out there. Some aware of who and what they are while others have no idea what is happening to them or why they do the things they do. Why drama is pulled towards them and creates havoc in their life. Why they keep meeting the same type of people day after day and never seem to have any calm about them. We tend to attrack those that need our help and sometimes it brings a bit of choas to our lives. Once we have done all we can for that person they vanish perhaps to show up as we walk further along our path or never to return again.

Some people would call empaths moody. Empaths pick up energies and emotions not just from other people, but from places and animals as well. You can be feeling right as rain one minute and then the next you are sick, anxious and at times giddy with excitement you can't explain. For some people they begin to question their sanity. After all they are up one minute down the next even they don't understand what is happening to them.

Now imagine being a child and going through these emotions but having no one who understands what you are going through. No one to help you adjust. Not all adults are in tune with this path so it's hard for children to understand what they are going through and even harder for the parent who has no clue. Parents would do the most logical thing first taking them to their family doctor to see what they have to say. Of course after they figure out there is nothing pysically wrong with the child the doctor would probably suggest counselling so they can get down to the bottom of the issue at hand. Unfortunately this never helps it only makes things worse.

It took me time to realize in order to figure out if it is my feelings or someone elses I have to think about when it started. What was I doing at the time? Who was I with? I get panick attacks when I go out! Not just to events but even outside my door, my domain! Of course it doesn't happen all the time but it does happen all the same. All it takes is for someone to be having a bad day. I live down the road from a school so I can assure you there are plenty of emotions that pass my door every day both good and bad. There have been many a day I went out to dinner or lunch with someone and had the uncanny desire to run out of the resturant. I would often say, "Can we go now?" Most of the time people realize it's me picking up on someone or something so it doesn't bother them too much! Over the years as I have matured into the crone I am now, I grew to realize I am the one in charge of what I feel. What I allow in but that took time to learn.

It's these feelings of intrusion that make me a bit shy and at times extremely shy. I find I often avoid being in public places and panic at the thought of going to a party or a wedding. When I don't have these feelings under control I have a problem losing weight. I have learned over the years that being empathic is probably why I am overweight. Since I get stressed out and overwhelmed my body harnesses it making it hard to lose weight or keep it under control. Being shy, avoiding events, avoiding going out in public, weight problems are all a part of how an empath tries to sheild or protect themselves from their psychic abilities. If we push it away we have a hard time in our lives. If we take the time to remember that and embrace this gift then and only then will life get more tollerable.

A perfect example here is when I lost my dad a year and half ago. Just before he died I had lost fifty pounds. I was feeling great about me and my spiritual path. Then my dad passed away. I thought I was handling things just fine. I was walking through life, writing, talking to people, helping those who needed it. Everything I always did but different. I was hidding out more and more in my apartment. Not exercising and gaining the weight again. I put on twenty five of the fifty I lost and now I was feeling depressed. I allowed what others thought of me to destroy my self estem. I began to allow these feelings in. Never a good thing to do. Now I am on a uphill battle to lose this weight again and then some but in order to do that I have to be inside my body. I have to breathe and realize no one can hurt me unless I allow them.

Most important is I can not deny who I am and what I do. I have to let the feelings in so I can help those who need it but then I must cleanse myself and come back into my body to be me. I must remember everyday to communicate with Spirit asking for protection and understanding. I need to pull from the Earth the energy I need to be who I am and thank her for always feeding me. I must remember to always protect myself even from the most innocent of phone calls because the anxiety of others can and will pull me down. By pulling the fear, sickness, unhappieness, excitemet, and so on from others around us we cause ourselves to be off balance. It is important for all empaths to keep themselves on track. To remember to not only to protect yourself but cleanse as well. It's not enough to take a shower and allow the water to rejuvenate you because sometimes you need to wash away the garbage you have picked up. A simple salt bath or shower will do. Trust me you will feel like a new person.

After many years of studying and learning about my path I have found the mix that is right for me. I make sure my house is my domain. It is where I am safe. If I have a client come to my home they do not get to invade it with their energy. When I go out I always make sure I am protected but there are times other peoples energy get through as well as times I allow their energy to come through. If this happens I make sure I am seperated from their energy before I move on. This is't something I knew how to do from day one of finding out I am an empath. It is something I learned from knowledge shared with me from the amazing people who have crossed my path, from my great grandmother to Lady Cinn my mentor.  I hope the knowledge I share with you through these blogs will help you adjust to your path in life. If ever you feel the need to reach out, ask a question, remember I am always willing to help.

To Be Continued!

 An Empath's Chore

By Toni Gamarro

I do not question the gifts bestowed me,

They make me who I am to be,

As the wind blows I can sense,

The energy which has been dispenced

Negative or possitive I must say,

Either or can make me sway,

Can knock me off balance, a bit tipsy too,

But that's ok I know what to do,

This energy gets under my skin,

Instead of fighting I welcome it in,

Negative energy can hurt I admit,

Even so I won't quit,

I am meant to help those in need,

I must feel them to succeed,

I need to know what they feel,

So I can help them heal,

Perhaps they just need to talk,

Or a friend with which to walk,

Someone to listen and be present,

Perhaps this is why I was sent,

Not always necessary to do a reading,

When you feel their energy pleading,

It may be they just need to learn,

Not to allow the negativity to return,

I must teach them how to protect,

So others energies cannot connect,

No matter what the course may be,

This is the task bestowed to me,

So I will open up to those in need,

Even if it feels like a stampede,

I will battle what comes my way,

Any negativity that may,

Bounce around and come at me,

Perhaps I can help set it free,

Ask the Universe to what is best,

To put the negativity to rest,

Turn it to possitive energy so it could be,

Used to set others free,

Bringing a possitive out-look once more,

Perhaps this is my empathic chore.

Follow Your Path

Good Morning and Blessings Everyone!

I love learning and doing research. It's how I grow, how I became who I am today. I have had people ask me what type of Witch am I, as well as, what spiritual path I follow. As if it has to be one or the other. Heaven forbide you take a little of this and a little of that and come up with you! 

As a Witch I have taken a little bit of everything I learned in life and added it to my main spiritual focus which is still Christianity. I hold tight to the teachings of my childhood and the Catholic Church. I believe in helping people, working with God or Spirit, however you see it. Perhaps that is what took me down the path of the Craft. I not only needed to understand the many visions I had in my life but most important I wanted and needed to help people. I do my work with love and the guidance of those who visit me from the other realm. Most important I do it with purity of heart. What kind of Witch am I? I have said this before I am a Catholic Witch who has been blessed with the knowledge of many as I walked along my spiritual path. People ask me where do I go when I ask for help spiritually. My answer is "I go to God!" for me there is no other because that is my path. Many do not understand that because they feel you cannot  mix Catholicim with the Craft. That is their right but it is also mine to know and feel what I do as I wake each day and walk my path.

One of the many joys I get walking my path through life is talking to people about anything and everything. Many are surprised I openly say I am a witch and they wonder if I am ever afraid of how people will treat me when they find out. Without hesitation I tell them no. Why should I be afraid of what others think of me? No one has a right to judge me or anyone else. As the old saying goes 'People who live in glass houses shouldn't throw stones.' It all comes down to we have been given the gift of life, to live it, enjoy it, cherish it, and share it with those we love. To live your life the way God or Spirit wants you to. I strive for that and in doing so find great peace.

I never put a label on what I was or who I am. When asked what my religion was I said I was Catholic. Growing up I thought witches were like the ones you read about or saw in movies. My great grandmother never used the word witch when she talked about helping or healing people. She just said we were different than most and some people would not understand that. She was a very quiet woman, at peace inside herself. She talked very little but when she did she taught you so much. I remember how just the touch of her hand or seeing the smile on her face brought me a feeling of peace. It wasn't until I was a mother myself and had access to the internet that I began to realize I was not alone in my beliefs. It was not until then that I began to realize just how many like minded people there are in this world.

I have met so many amazing people along my journey. People who have taught me there is no need to be ashamed of who and what I am. People who have taught me not to let others intimidate me. I was not given these gifts by Spirit in order to upset my life. I will not claim to know why Spirit saw fit to bless me or anyone else with gifts for only Spirit knows why this is done. I do know that it is not expected for me to misuse these gifts to cause harm. I understand these gifts were given to me to work with the power of light and not to lose focus on helping others. Yes I do readings and I charge for them but I also do spiritual counseling and healing and do not put a price on that. I feel if someone wants to give a donation than that is fine whatever they can afford but they have to understand I have only lent and ear to listen with or my hands for their team and mine to heal with. If I can help someone feel better about themselves or physically start to feel an improvement in their health just by laying my hands on them and allowing God/Spirit and the angels to come through then I have done my part. Helping people with herbs, oils, even spells which I see as prayers I write myself, is better than looking the other way. It's how my gifts were meant to be used. 

Too many of us forget that and in doing so we get lost ourselves. Things go crazy in our lives and we lose focus. Suddenly we can't hear or see those who have come to us since we could remember. We can even lose contact with our guides until we open up and again and remember exactly what are path is. Remember to be true to yourself and  follow your path.

To Be Continued........
                  

A Crone

By Toni Gamarro

What am I? People often ask,

I am not hidding beind a mask,

I am proud to be just what you see,

A woman, who through lifes lessons, is learning to be,

Strong and proud of the gifts sent my way,

As I smile and walk through each day,

With the knowledge of elders who passed by,

Taking the time to stop and say hi,

Sharing their experiences to help me learn,

Then I will teach others in return,

The knowledge they share will help me along,

For knowledge is power and makes me strong,

To do my work and not be afraid,

To teach others not to be dismayed,

We are blessed, gifted some say,

Spirit made sure it would be this way,

So who are we to question the gifts that were sent,

Why do we struggle with ourselves and torment,

Over what others think and say,

For it's Spirit who we answer to at the end of the day,

So I stand tall and hold my head high,

I have learned not to question why,

My gifts have taught me to live in peace,

They have helped to learn to release,

All the negative energy which comes my way,

So I can live and enjoy each day,

I have learned to give thanks to Mother Earth,

For the beauty in which she gives birth,

I live a life that is simple and free,

Thankful for all that was bestowed on me,

I am a woman strong and proud,

I do not hide beneath a shroud,

For I will dance in the rain to rejuvenate,

With the Earth I will communicate,

For through my years I have grown,

From a Maiden, to a  Mother, and now a Crone!

Saint Michael The Archangel

Good Morning and Blessings Everyone!

I am sure we have all heard the biblical stories of Saint Michael leading the Gods armies into battle against evil therefore defeating Satan. I know those are the stories I grew up hearing in Church or Sunday school. I am also sure we are all too familiar with the image of this mighty heavenly warrior holding his shield as he goes into battle against evil. In all the paintings and statues I have ever seen of Saint Michael he stands holding his shield with sword in hand ready to do battle. He uses his shield as a barrier to protect us from all harm. He keeps away negativity and therefore keeps us safe from harm.

As I grew older and wiser I have called on Saint Michael for a number reasons many times. For me and for many of my friends and like-minded individuals I have come to know and love, we call on Saint Michael for assistance. To say we do not call on him to “fight our battles,” to stand besides us in time of trouble would be lie but that is not all we call to him for. Saint Michael is there for us. Call out his name and he is standing beside you to lend you support, boast your courage, and help build your confidence. There have been many times when my self-esteem was at an all-time low so I called on Saint Michael to help me see who I really am inside and not to worry so much about the outer shell. He stands by you and with a gentle touch of his wing he guides you to find and experience new opportunities. It is up to you to call to him for help. Saint Michael will not invade your space but will come if invited by you. Ask him for what you need even if it is to help you heal, Saint Michael the Archangel will be there.

Well now you are asking how do I know he is there helping me. How do I know he has heard me? I have had the pleasure of hearing the angels as they guide me. This is a gift I cherish. Each one is different just like no two humans are completely the same. I like talking with Saint Michael he is clear and loud enough even for me to hear. My family will appreciate that comment since I am honestly a bit hard of hearing. I used to joke when I started doing my angel readings because there were days I swore I had a comedian talking to me. As I learned about the angels I discovered Saint Michael has a good sense of humor as well as a few others that have visited me. You will find when he is present there comes the feeling of love and peace all around you.

Saint Michael the Archangel is always in your corner. He is more a life coach than a by stander. Like many coaches though Saint Michael does not sugar coat his messages. He is blunt and to the point, take it or leave it, but my advice to you is to listen because he is there to guide you through. Do not mistake is tone as being overbearing or bossy he is just being forceful so we hear him. It is his goal to help us stand tall and not wait around for something to happen but to take the bull by the horns and make it happen.  He wants to spark us into action so to speak. Just like any coach Saint Michael pushes hard to have us stand up for ourselves and take the action we need to get on the path we need to be on regardless of what it is we are looking to him for guidance for. For those people who feel they have no place else to turn, if they just stopped and listened, felt his gentle push, they would understand they are not alone for Saint Michael is by their side. He is guiding them out of their daze but they have to follow him to see the light.

I mentioned the peacefulness that comes with the appearance of Saint Michael or any other angel for that matter. If you took the time to mediate and feel the peacefulness as it washes over you, you will hear their message. I lost people in my family I thought would be here till I was old and grey, like many of you. My mother, my sister whom I had a pact with that we would sit on the porch and enjoy our grandchildren together as we sipped iced tea, and most recently my father. Three of the most devastating times in my life. I don’t know how many times during these times plus many more in my life I heard the sound of the angels call out to me. Each time I was devastated and sure I was alone but they reminded me I was not. I would hear my name called out sharply as if someone was trying to startle me into realizing I was not alone. I know Saint Michael stood by my side because I called out to him for help. I could feel the peacefulness of his presence during each and every one of these times in my life helping me get through one ordeal or another. Most importantly I feel him every day of my life. I feel him when all is good and I just reach out to thank him for protecting me and my family. For being there to watch over all those I love and all those in this world who I don’t know but need his help. Yes I thank him for the help he gives to people I never even said hello to since I ask him to lend a hand to them. If I ask for help from Saint Michael or any other angel be it for me, a friend, a family member, or someone I never even met, the least I can do is say thank you for all their help. Please don’t ever forget to show your appreciation.

I often ask my friends this question: Have you ever been stressed out, feeling lost, just needed to talk to someone anyone and sat in a quiet place praying or talking to no one in particular but yet you got the feeling someone was there? During any of these times did you ever feel as if you suddenly received the most amazing hug in the world? A hug that brought you warmth and love even though you could not physically see anyone around you! You may not have called out his name but you called out and Saint Michael came to wrap you in his wings and bring you calm as he soothed your nerves and calmed your fears. It is the most amazing feeling I have ever felt.

Saint Michael or any angel often gives us a sign they hear us in the physical world. I mean there are so many of us who question if we are really hearing, seeing, even understanding the messages we get. It stands to reason if we ask for proof they hear us we will receive such proof. I have heard people say they find pennies all over the place even dimes. I know people who when talking to the angels suddenly see butterflies, even feathers. For me when I ask for a sign I get dragonflies! One of the big reasons I love them so much.

There are many nights I sit in the quiet to talk to my guides. Many nights I call out to Saint Michael for strength and healing. I know he is always there for me. In the mornings I love to light a white candle and ask for Saint Michael to be by side to keep me and my family safe and at peace. No matter when I ask or how many times a day I call out to him Saint Michael is there and I always say thank you for all the help he has given me. I remember a message I got from Saint Michael a few years back. He told me not to worry about calling out to him. No matter how busy he is he will always come because all angels and multitask! I laughed but he told me I often neglect to ask for help for myself because I always worried he was busy helping others in need. Saint Michael said he receives many requests every day but he is never too busy to go out and help all who call. So do not worry he is occupied helping others he will be there for you as well. Just let him hear your voice.

To Be Continued………………

I Only Do What The Voices In My Head Tell Me To!

Good Afternoon and Blessings Everyone!

One day while browsing through a t-shirt catalog I couldn't help but think, "That is so me," when I saw this t-shirt saying staring me in the face. I only do what the voices in my head tell me to! A long time ago when I was just a little girl I realized that something was different about me. Well to be honest so did my parents but they were afraid for me so they spent most of the time convincing me I was not hearing, let alone seeing, what I thought I was. I was always afraid to talk to anyone about what I saw or heard so I hid. I became very quiet and shy careful not to spill the beans to anyone that I obviously had something wrong with me. I mean after all, not everyone got a visit from those who are not of this realm so obviously it wasn't real. I tried for so long to push it away, to close my eyes as they walked through my room at night, to sing songs and block out the voices that kept telling me what needed to be heard. I begged God to help me to be normal!

What I didn't know then was I was not only normal I was gifted. When I was a young girl I fought so hard to do what my parents wanted me to do and hide my gifts. I started getting sick at a very young age. In and out of the hospital with one infection or another. Fighting hard to keep those trying to communicate with me at bay was making me sick. I din't know that then but I do now. Still I am very quiet about what I hear and what I see not because I no longer believe I have these gifts but because they were not given to me to flaunt but to use for the better good of others. My Great Grandmother once told me to pay attention and listen to what they had to say. I know she is with me all the time and cherish her guidance when she was here with me on this Earth and now that she has her hand on my shoulder guiding me from within the next realm. Her wisdom has been my strength. 

When I was younger I used to hear them talk to me. I didn't know what it was that I was hearing so of course I told my mother. She asked me what they sounded like and I told her whispers in my ear, a soft voice in my head. What she meant was whose voice was I hearing. I had to think about that before I realized it was my own voice I heard them in. Of course not understanding what I was going through my mother became afraid something was wrong with me. The more she asked me if I was still hearing things the more I realized I had deny it. I started telling her I was ok, no more voices, no more visitors but there were and there was no one I could turn to once my Great Grandmother was gone. I had little to no friends in high school, I spent most of my time at the convent helping the nuns. I loved it there, felt at peace but it also brought me closer to the Divine because I was doing good for others not thinking of just myself. I started to realize that being empathic and having clairaudiance coupled with clairvoyance was a lot for one person to handle so young but I had to learn this was my calling, my path in life. 

As I got older people wanted me to put a label on what my gifts were. I never looked at myself as anything special but I do mention my gifts now so you can understand them better. I always saw myself simply as a Seer. Someone who can see those who have passed on (if I'm lucky), someone who hears what messages my guides are sending me (again if I'm lucky), someone blessed with visions (again if I'm lucky), and someone who can sense and feel the needs of others on a daily basis (if I'm lucky). I don't always see, hear, feel, every day. These are gifts that are there if I need them or if someone is in need of me. Since I was the only one I knew that had these gifts for so long I didn't know if I was using them right or even understood them correctly. This is one of the reasons I love the internet. When I finally got on the internet and met people like me, like minded people, I met so many willing to share and learn. It is an amazing group of people. Some I know are real, while others I know have no clue and are just doing what the movies tell them is correct. I caution you to be careful of whom you listen to. Learn the right information so you can develop your gifts and feel good in your own body. Trust me you will feel when they are right or wrong if you let your gifts and your guides show you the way.

You can not imagine what a relief it was when I asked a mentor of mine what the voices sounded like to her and she told me her own voice. I felt as if a weight had been lifted from my shoulders. I was not crazy, I was normal for someone who is gifted with such wonderful gifts. When I do readings or often when I walk around the house asking questions and no one is there to answer me, I still get answers. I have said time and again I do not read Tarot cards because I can not grasp them. I do however read angel cards which I will explain in my next blog. But I want to go back to before I read angel cards, before I realized there were cards I could read. Back then I still was able to do readings because I read the people. I didn't always have to touch someone to read them. Most of the time I just had to look into their eyes or listen to their voice, if I was on the phone, and I could read them. It felt good to connect and be able to help those in need no matter what my technique was. I didn't pick I was guided on what to do but still there were those voices in my head that gave me the answers the person sitting in front of me needed. I learned in time to trust those voices and realize they were not harmful to me or to any one else. It is my inner voice, my guides, my team, be it angels, saints or whatever the Divine sends my way. It is the voice of the power of the white light, the power of the Divine that shows me the way. 

To this day I call upon those who watch over me to help me stay on my path. I listen to their words of wisdom as to which way my path will and should turn. I pay attention to those vibrations around me so I can feel, understand, and help those in need with love, understanding and compassion. If I am wrong, if I turn my back on what I am meant to do, I will not hear my friends, my guides for they will have no reason to come to me. I will however find myself in a path of drama that will drive me to realize I have strayed from my path. It's almost like a scolding from mother to a child who is going near a hot stove to stay away or they can get burned. When I don't listen to the voices in my head my scolding is a warning I am drifting too far away. I am being warned I need to wake up and get back on the path that is me, the path that brings peace in my life and puts me in position to help others in need. 

I thank God everyday for the blessings I have. For the gift of sight, hearing, and feeling. I thank God everyday for always being there and believing in me. I often ask him how can I be of greater service and then something happens that makes me realize he is answering me. Over the past couple of years I have come to realize I have lived a blessed life. I live in peace, understanding of others, and love for all those who bless my life. I often frustrate others because I do not fight, I laugh everyday, do not respond to drama, and find my peace within myself. Just so you know I am human and I do want to lash out many times. I often get on the computer and write what I think about a situation that is upsetting me but instead of saving it I delete it. I often look at comments on fb and get so upset I type in a nasty comment but delete it. I don't delete these out of fear of a response I delete these comments and thoughts because I vented my words to the Divine and it's over. The frustration and possible anger but often then not hurt I feel is gone. These voices that whisper to me heard my cry and helped me release all the earth bound garbage. No one ever said having these gifts were easy but with them does come a responsibility to yourself, to others, and the Divine.